Flowers for Jacob
As Tyler's Grandma, I wonder just what goes though his mind when we visit his brother Jacobs place of rest. When we get there he worry's about the head stone being dirty. Tyler is the one that works on making the flowers just right.

Tyler James loves his little brother so very much.
He is for ever picking out flowers for his brothers grave. I feel Jacobs, death made Tyler grow up way to fast. He has to understand things he should never of had to, and it came in his life way to soon. I can see Tyler going thought all the emotions of grief. Tyler was way to close to Jacob and it hurts him so very deep.
Jacob's basinet as of April of 2004 is still next to Edith's bed. She refuses to move it and I let her have that for everyone needs to have what they feel is right. Tyler comes in to her room in the early morning. One day he placed his hand in the indent in the bassinet. There is a perfect impression of were Jacobs head use to lay. Tyler gently placed his hands over the impression with out touching it at all. Tyler Looked over to Edith and said "do you still think of my baby? Momma said "all the time" Tyler said " this is Jacobs head imprint, You got to be carefully not to touch it cause it wont be there, huh? Then Momma stated "yes, we have to be careful not to bother it or it will not be there anymore.

I've been to other National Cemetery's in the USA as a child, one thing that stuck in my mind more then anything was the rows of white stones. All laid in perfect height and true straight lines any way you looked at them, East West North and South.
When I asked my father why they were like that he explained it to me in detail like he did everything I ever questioned. Out of all he told me that day the simplest thing he said meant the most and made be proud to be an American. I was only a 8 year old but I was proud to be standing in a field of heroes that meant so much to so many. Men and some women that gave their life's to fight for our freedom. And at the end of his teaching it was our way (USA) of honoring the fallen solders.

I have to say that I'm a lot disappointed with the National Cemetery were my grandson Rest. The head stones are not straight they don't even try. The head stones are not in straight lines anyway you look at them and the heights are all different. Some head stones are even tilted back and others are not. I don't seam to understand something so simple to do something so important to honor our solders and their family's, has been forgotten.
The mums that were upon Jacob,s grave this day, are the ones I used for this page. They were big bright and I thought they would really look nice here. I tired to use as many personal items I could to do Jacobs site. You will even notice items of his clothes used and even my favorite items within my home. This is the only thing I have to offer him and for me it will never be enough.

This is the new area at the Tahoma National Cemetery so there is no grass yet. As soon as it is full of loved ones, they will hydro seed. So right now it is beauty bark.
A nice bright sunny day.

I have taken many pictures of Jacobs Grave site about three different times now, that I have been there. I don't know why over half I discard because it is a digital camera and it's easy to. It's just a place were my Grandson body is kept. I know he is not there, he is always with us in spirit.

As I sized these pictures to a 4x6 print I never noticed ........
I never even noticed after placing each picture in the frames I spent time making. It was here on the very picture I noticed ......
As I was placing the picture into the frame I seen the spot on my camera above Jacobs grave.
I thought I would just cover it with Jacob's clear graphic angle we made. I thought I don't wont to go repair the photo for something so miner as that.
I went in to my file to pull up the Graphic angle to place on the photo. I pulled the graphic angle down and then it dawned on me. It was not raining it was a very overcast day and I away's check my lens before shooting Pictures.
Then I looked at the other photos I've taken of the grave site. There is the one I cropped in really close of Tyler placing the mums on Jacob's grave. I don't see anything there. But in all the others whether it was sunny or overcast day there is something in the photo...
Well it's just a little spot. But it is only in the photos at Jacob's grave site.
I'll let you decide for your self ...
But I do believe it is Jacob present with us. I believe angels greave too, I know now he hears what we have been saying to him all along.
I decided I didn't need to place the graphic angel of Jacob on the grave stone. Because Jacob was already there and that is what his angel form really looks like to us if we were to look upon it.
So I'll place the angel I made right here instead.

In Loving Memory of Our Grandson
Jacob Allen Victorino Zeigler
Happy Easter Baby Boy 2004
The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.
He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies:
thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life:
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.

Please view all of Jacobs Web pages, They are in order just click on Next.
Then please Remember to sign Jacob's guess book, to leave an Imprint in our hearts


I see the countless Christmas trees
around the world below
with tiny lights like Heaven's stars
reflecting on the snow

The sight is so spectacular
please wipe away the tears
for I am spending Christmas
with Jesus Christ this year!

I hear the many Christmas songs
that people hold so dear
but the sound of music can't compare
with the Christmas choir up here!

So please be happy for me, dear ones
you know I hold you dear
and be glad I'm spending Christmas
with Jesus Christ this year!

Please love and keep each other
as my Father said to do
for I can't count the blessings or love
He has for each of you

So have a Merry Christmas
and wipe away that tear
remember ...I am spending Christmas
with Jesus Christ this year!

This Web page Created, With all My Love.
For my Grandson Jacob.
These flowers are for you Jacob!
Grandma (Madelyn Victorino)
In loving memory of our Grandson
Jacob Allen Victorino Zeigler

Born on Earth 6-6-2003 to awaken in Heaven on 12-13-2003
~Rest in Peace~
Page 9 of 12 updated on 10-7-2006

Just a small whisper a gentle breeze is it Jacob ?
He is just above watching over us all the time some times we can capture a twinkle of his presents

Song: Amazing Grace Bagpipes
By: Braveheart

Halloween 2004
This halloween was very difficult for me. Last year (2003) I made sure Jacob and Tyler had halloween costumes. I had purchased two for Jacob not knowing just which one he would ware on Halloween day.

This year the same costumes hung in the store and it was all I could do to leave the area before I lost it.
Last year 2003 I was in pain and really didn't want to go out with the family on Halloween night. But Johnathen and I agreed we would do a block or two then go home for a good movie and dinner with everyone.

It was to be Jacobs first halloween and it was just one of those special things we have always done.
No way would I miss it,
I wanted to carry him but found out really soon that it would not be possible. So Shane his daddy carry him most of the time. Grandpa gave Shane Brakes every now and then.

So many memories, so little time.

Easter Eggs were Decorated for Jacob,
Each with our message of love written upon them. Easter Lilly from Pooler's, Flowers from Grandpa, eggs done by Uncle John and Brother Tyler, and wagon & bunny from Grandma.
Flowers from Mommy's & Daddy's Garden
"Happy Easter to Mommy's Little man." Edith
Memorial Day 2004
Tahoma National Cemetery
Beautiful green grass covers Jacob's site now and more sites are coming all to soon.

Jacob's Birthday 6/6/2004

I have no cake for you this day
There will be no celebration like we should
No sweet white frosting to smear upon your face
There will be no sticky sweet mess to clean up this year
No frosting in your ear, up your nose or in your hair

No pictures like that will I take
No not this year there will be no cake. I didn't have to teach you, how to blow
Blowing out the candle with out all the spit
The candle for a one-year-old boy will not be blown out by you
No one will have to eat a piece of cake with all that baby spit
No I didn't have to teach you how to blow out the candle like that
God only knows just how much I will miss not seeing you do that.

No presents wrapped in pretty wrapping, will be on the table for you
I won’t have to worry about the paper you would try and eat or getting the ribbon away from you
No bows will we stick to the top of your head
No toys will Grandpa and Uncle John have to worry about putting together
There will be no reason to worry about batteries; there is no need.

There will be no balloons all over the house
None for your big brother Tyler, to pop and try to scare you with.
No balloons to go around your wrist, none for you to try and sit on.
No Balloons to smear your frosting on, no not this year

All I can do is tell you I love you and miss you so much and pray that you hear me.
I will place many flowers, different shades of Blue Balloons and one Red one upon your grave
I will mark your place of rest the best I can
I will burn a candle in memory of you and I promise every tear I shed will have a reason to fall.
But I know I will still want to bake a cake and see the candle light up your face.
That moment along with thousands of others I will truly miss.
No cake for you this day, Some day God will tell me why he took you away.

Love you forever,
Your proud Grandma, Madelyn Victorino 6-6-2004

These are the Easter Lilly's that Jack & Adrian Pooler gave us to place on Jacob's grave.
After Easter was over I got the bulbs and planted them in a corner of our yard that is known as Jacobs Garden.
November 2004 the Easter Lilly's Bloomed again. Along with every flower placed on his grave site.
We were amazed to see them Bloom again in November
The Roses were given to us from Scotty and Alisa Wheeler
The day we laid Jacob to rest.
Jacob's first birthday we had a helium bottle and filled many many balloons. Wrote our saying on them and we let them go high onto the air. Had a dinner as a family and missed our baby boy, really didn't know what we could do to relieve the pain. Later that night I wrote a birthday pome placed it on his site.

For Jacob's second birthday we missed him as always and tired to picture him as a two year old.
We celebrate here as a family, Edith, Tyler, Shane, John Grandpa and me. Had cake and watch a video that Uncle John put together of all Jacob's photos and music.We spent time filling balloons and this year sent even more into the air. Grandpa John Tyler and I Took the time to set flowers upon his grave after mommy and daddy left.
It's hard and sometimes just to painfully, Edith still has difficulty with his death and I don't know if me holding on to his memory and celebrating birthdays is good or not. Photo's above are of 6-6-2005

Jacob's 3rd birthday we just remembered it and and cryed. Later that day I received a call from Edith asking if I remembered what day it was. I guess It did make a difference to her and even though she didn't say anything celebrating was important to her too. So we will celebrate Jacob's birthday on 6-6-2007 and every year.
This little Christmas tree twinkled all thought the night for over two weeks, upon Jacobs grave site. We Purchased lights fat a hobby store that ran off battery's. Every day we would replace the battery's on the tree and the wreath. Jacob's Christmas tree is now in our yard and is getting bigger every year
Jacob's little Christmas tree is growing into a long needle pine. But it was just a little tree we picked up and the Safeway store.As you can see we needed to weed out the dandy lions.