Flowers for my Grandson:

Flowers, something I never thought I would purchase for you,
Never in a million Years.
Flowers are not for children, Flowers are for lovers and years
Flowers are not for children, keeps running though my mind.
Not for my Jacob Allen, it runs though my mind every time.

I go to the store and I walk all alone thinking of things I can bring you home
warm fuzzy blankets, soft wooly bears and foot-tee pajamas to wear anywhere.
The isles are always full of wonderful things, changing with the seasons winter though spring.

I wonder around looking at things then come to realize the hardest thing
I stand in the isles with tears running down, then I have to think of flowers to lay on the ground
They have to be pretty no wilted ones will do.
Should they be white for the pure of heart or should they be blue

Roses have thorns is my first thoughts, thorns for a baby, that just wont do
Should I get carnations, do they have anything in Blue.
Carnations I love, when they are big fluffy and white
Can I find daisies with centers so bright

Flowers are not for children, I feel I'm going to snap,
I don't wont to buy my grandson something like that

Oh Please God hear my cry, not for my baby Jacob, flowers just die.
Flowers are not for children can't you see.
Jacob should be playing with toys and sand pails by the sea .

Many will never know my grand baby is gone, How will I show off all the things he has done
If I speak of all my grandchildren many years from today,
Will they all understand fully why his name I do say.

Jacob Allen if Grandma's wish could come true
A few years from now maybe twenty one or two
I would see you,my grandson from heavens up high,
I would see you standing all grown at my graveside and I would hear your gentle sigh
"These Flowers are for you Grandma, I love you and miss you too."
That would make my wish come true

Flowers are not for children, our young babies should not die
Sudden infant death takes them to soon, and no one knows why
Flowers are not for children and I do know why,
I would have never in a million years bought my grandson any if he didn't die.
With all my love (Grandma) Madelyn Victorino

Written By; Madelyn Victorino January 2004

This is my precious Jacob Allen,
Here he is all tucked in to the couch sitting up like a big boy, looking all around. Uncle John thinks this is the best one of these photos, and I have to agree with him. It is the way he is tucking in his bottom lip. He would tuck it in like this and sometimes make a little noise like a kiss sound when he would release it. He did it alot when he would eat cheese cake mouse from Granny's family restaurant. Grandma broke all the rules. This little man got to taste lots of goodies from grandma's plate.

He is just chillin' in a t-shirt watching the TV and Tyler playing in the front room. I decided to snap a few pictures of him to see just how they would turn out. It was bad weather outside but I really wanted a few photos. I had to clean and lighten these up a bit to be able to see them better. But, all the photos that I have are treasures to me now. Worth more then Gold it's self. I had these pictures all enlarged clean and was able to see the bubbles he was making around his little mouth. Just the little things now that make us smile. Sometimes if you look close you can see so much more then you ever dreamed you would. You remember smells sounds and recall special things that were taken for granted at that moment. I had so many plans for this 2004 summer with Jacob and Tyler. Waiting for warmer weather was the only thing standing in his way for coming to the dog shows with us.
" Jacob With Attitude"
This photo was so dark I didn't think I could save it. When I had the film developed they could not lighten this photo anymore. I was able to lighten it alot on my computer and soften it. I think this is a really cute picture of Jacob. He looks like he has attitude here in this photo,
but it is just manly the darkness of the photo.
Personality & Attitude, he had alot of both.

Please view all of Jacob's Web - pages, They are in order just click on Next.
Then please Remember to sign Jacob's guest book,
to leave an Imprint in our hearts

This Web page Designed, With all My Love for my Little Jacob,
Grandma (Madelyn Victorino)
Jacob Allen Victorino Zeigler


God's Lent Child

I'll lend you for a little while a child of mine, God said,
For you to love him while he lives,
and mourn for when he's dead.
It may be six or seven years,
or forty-two or three;
But will you, till I call him back,
take good care of him for me?

He'll bring his charms to gladden you,
and should his stay be brief,
You'll have the lovely memories
as a solace for your grief.
I cannot promise he will stay,
since all from earth return;
But there are lessons taught below
I want this child to learn.

I've searched the whole world over,
for teachers kind and true;
And from the throngs that crowd life's lane
I have chosen you...
Now will you give him all your love?
Nor think the labor pain?
Nor hate me should the angels call,
to take this child back again?

To which the parents did reply...
Dear Lord, Thy will be done.
For all the joys thy child will bring,
the risk of grief we'll run.
We'll shelter him with tenderness,
We'll love him while we may...
for all the love this child will bring,
forever grateful we will stay.
But should the Angels call for him,
much sooner than we've planned,
We'll brave the bitter grief that comes,
and try to understand.

Author: Edgar A. Guest

At Grandpa & Grandma's
Jacob & Tyler just showed up at Grandpa & Grandma's house for us to watch. Grandpa took off to the store to get some hard teething cookies for Jacob.
Grandpa returned with the wrong type, not the first baby cookies but one's for toddlers.
So we gave him a milk bone dog biscuit for the picture.

~ Oh goodness back up Uncle John ~
In November 2003 I was a welder for the Iron Workers. My Husband and I both were working in Centraila Washington and the commute was very long. The last Friday we didn't have to work the weekend so we had time to stop and do some shopping. I just had to stop on the way home to purchase my new grandson some baby clothes for this coming spring 2004.
I purchased many cute little out fits for Jacob and couldn't wait until he tried them all on.
Grandpa was right there helping me pick out clothes for the boy.

Grandma is getting him out of the car seat, he is going to spend the rest of the day with us. He was always so very happy to see us
Mommy is off to work, and now we get to spoil this little man.
Uncle John took these picture of Jacob cause he thought it was funny to see him with the dog biscuit
.
After Jacob, passed we found these photos still in the digital camera.

November 29th, 2003 Jacob Allen, attended a second dog show, it was the UKC Snow Weight Pull event.
Edith dropped him off at the show site for us to watch, he was such a good baby.
After the weight pull show we all went out for dinner to Granny's Buffet.
I will miss this little man he was just starting to be able to come to the shows with Grandpa and Grandma.
I never have minded the care needed for babies. I've always been the one to take the kids everywhere the family goes. I would rather go somewhere with the kids then leave them home with a sitter.
Our children and grandchildren are the main reason for us showing the dogs, we started years ago with horses.
Kids learn to care and love with the help of animals.
Showing animals of any kind can bring the family together

Jacob was able to attend his first dog show with the family before his passing.
On July 19th 2003 Jacob Allen attended the Evergreen State APBT Dog show. It was our first dog show with Jacob. It was a show Grandma had spent alot of time getting ready for, including making sure the whole family was able to be there. Edith, Shane, Tyler James, Jacob Allen,Uncle John, Grandpa and myself (Grandma)
h ad all the dogs and was ready to camp out with the kids. But unfortunately we only attended just the beginning of the show and had to leave. But Jacob, his mommy and Daddy stayed for a bit longer.

This was Jacob's first time with any kind of cookie. So he didn't put it to his face right away.
Later Grandpa picked up the right kind of baby cookies and Jacob just would make a mess, he would get cookie all over his face. We kept them really cold in the freezer to help his teething
Oh by the way, we didn't let him eat the dog cookie but it was cute for this photo.
Jacob was more into wondering why we hadn't taken him out of the car seat,
then he was all about the cookie. We had a great night with Jacob and Tyler. There were many times I couldn't wait to get home to see my little boys.

The Lord is my shepherd,
I shall not want;
He makes me lie down in green pastures.
He leads me beside still waters;
He restores my soul.
He leads me in paths of righteousness
for His name's sake.
Even though I walk through the valley
of the shadow of death,
I fear no evil;
for You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me
all the days of my life;
and I shall dwell in the house of the
Lord forever.
Psalm 23

Song: One More Day
By: Diamond Rio

All the kings horses and all the kings men
will never fix our broken hearts again